army strong ?

okay soo not alot of ppl know this but as of late, i have seriously been considering joininq the army reserve . of course, nothing is definite as of yet but i have been doing hella research, reqesting all of those info packets, & i'm planning on talking to a recruiter for any other questions i might have ..

i'm sure a lot - if not all of you are probably like "this btch is buggin." & sometimes i think i really miqht be but then aqain i also think that this miqht be for the best .

i mean honestly i'm @ a point in life where my situation feels so helpless . i'm almost 20, unemployed, not in colleqe, the $$$ in my savinqs account is slowly but surely dwindling & in abt 2 yrs or so, my parents are planning to retire & move to florida & i have no plans on joining them since my entire life is here in new york but i'm not really sure where to go ..

but even besides my sob story,
i really just want to make a difference
i want to become something better in life
after the army, my life would be fckin set

i just really gotta think this through
before i make such a huge commitment ..

sigh *

uhhh wtf ?

okay okay okaayyy .
you miqht or miqht not know this,
but cassie is definitely hiqh on the list
of btchs that could qet it .

however,
i'm not really all too sure
what to make of her bold new hairdo .


like seriously, i just do not know .
i mean of course her face is undeniably qorqeous;
but i just don't think she has the riqht swag for this cut .
& i miqht be wronq but i could've sworn i seen
on of the nina sky twins w| a cut similar to this one ?
whatever .

i'm interested to see how she carries this .

you miqht or miqht not know ..

that destiny's child is qettinq back toqether .
the only reason beinq that they still have one more record on their contract .



yay or nay ?
i personally think it's qonna be a little weird .
i mean, beyonce has made such a name for herself now .
it seems like kelly & michelle are just ridinq on her coat tail .

if bands are qonna start qettin back toqether & whatnot
can we qet *nsync back up in this btch ? lmfao .
i kid, i kid .... kinda .

xoxo ♥

sigh *

okay bloqqers . i am aware that i suck .
i haven't updated this shit in hella lonq .
my bad .

* random updates i'm sure nobody really cares abt ..

- started takinq an imaqe consultinq class @ F.I.T. in the city; fckinq hated it . too many of what i feel are insiqnificant rules [i.e. whether a person is "cool", "warm", "summer", "winter", "sprinq", "fall" & other thinqs] that i don't aqree w| .. plus the teacher was an inconsistant btch . i'm lookinq for a different class to take ..

- on that note, i am STILL on the hunt for a fckinq job . idk wtf is qonnna happen w| that . i feel like the only fckinq bum & it is not cute . my homeqirl vanessa says she's qonna try to qet me a job at the bank she just started workinq @ .

- i'm slowly losinq my mind, beinq celibent for almost 4 months . i can't even watch a fckinq sex scene in a movie cuz i qet jealous . it's ridiculous, this is not the way life was meant to be .

- i'm debatinq on startinq a facebook - althouqh i made a personal oath never to do such a thinq . my lovee nicole has been tryinq to convert me thouqh & i'm considerinq it just to shut her up lol & i'm curious too see who i could possibly link up w| . i just hate that everythinq you do on the site is hell public .. idk i haven't made up my mind yet .

- twitter has definitely become my newest love & i have no idea why . but if i'm not updatinq my bloq & your wonderinq wtf is up w| my life, check me out there . i wish i had more friends on it thouqh ..

- linked up w| the ex last wknd . we spent a day chillin qettin drunk & chillinq & went to see fast & furious toqether . of course, the alcohol brouqht us to be way more friendly then i think we had anticipated to be & it kinda makes the situation a little weird . i'm definitely not ready for thinqs to start back up w| us cuz not much has chanqed really . but i also don't think that we could be just friends .. its pretty fckinq confusinq & idk what to do .

lol sooo yeah .
shit hasn't been too eventful
but i promise to defintely try & update more often
cuz i'm sure you btch's miss me, riiiiiqhtt ? lol

xoxo ♥

bad btch .

AMBER ROSE .
kanye west's new arm candy is def my new eye candy; the btch is baaaddd .



now i've been readinq all these bloqs & ppl are hella hatinq on her sayin shit like how she looks like a dike, a man, like she qot cancer . STFU ! the qirl qot steez & is on fire even w| a shaved head ! so cut the shit & qive her props for bein able to look soo dope without havinq hair to hide behind like most qirls do . i love her, she could qet it, the end . not to mention she miqht be the remedy to mr west's heartbreak, since they do look happy toqether .




& they look damn qood toqether .

happy birthday carla ♥

i fckinq loveee youuuu bebe !

in other news :
i am now un member of la twitter community !
woopwoop . aren't i fckinq cool ? not really but really .
anywhoo, its kinda shiftinq into an obession ..
it pretty interestinq to see what eveyone else is doinq
a tad stalkerish but interestinq still lol
i'm still pretty new to it thouqh soo anyone who has one
be sure to leave your link in a cmnt so that i can follow youu [:

so what's thicker than blood ?

ever went out w| somebody whose parents hated you for some unknown reason ? internet celeb, chris crocker - best known for his "leave britney alone" video - says what he thinks .



i fckinq loveee this kid !
check out his youtube for some more hilariously true shit [:

sidenote : i finally watched the series finale of the L word on my DVR & i almost shitted when i realized it shall forever be unknown who the fck killed jenny ! & on top of it, they left off w| sooo much unresolved shit & yet it is over PARA SIEMPRE - FOREVERRRRRR & we will neverrrrrr know .

sadface sadface sadface .
does anyone who watched it have any opinions ?
WHO THE FCK KILLED JENNY ?!