worst weekend EVER !

no really . i'm not even exaqqeratinqqqqqqq ! it's like this weekend qod just decided he hated me & that he wanted me to be miserable before xmas - as usual . but damn .. it all started on friday, the last time i worked .. but to be prefectly honest, i have no desire whatsoever to qet into storymode so i'm qonna just make this really short .. this was my weekend ..

f r i d a y :

the ex hit me up for the 1st time since he found out abt me & whatshisface ..

some other dude who qot my number started blowin up my fone ridiculous ..

s a t u r d a y :

i broke niqht so i could qo to the mall at the crack & qet on line for the jordan packaqe but ended up beinq too impatient to wait outside in the freezinq cold on a line around the block; so i left empty handed (sadface)..

i qot suspended from work ..

probably qonna be fired if i dont find another job & quit asap ..

was so depressed i hit up my ex to chill ..

qot hella fckinq benttt; drank mad LQ & smoked hella L's ..

sleepover at the ex's ..

s u n d a y :

spent whole day w| him ..

sooo now i am back at square fckinq ONE . i've just been tryinq to stay as busy as i can soo i dont even have time to think abt whats qoinq on & what's qonna happen . i'm just tryinq to stay as optimistic as possibleeeeee ; i know i said biq chanqes were cominq & i'm thinkinq mabe this is just supposed to be my motivation to not qet too comfortable & really qet on my shit & do what i qotta do .

as far as my ex qoes - i know i was tlkinq mad shit abt him before & i was tlkinq to some next niqqa but after chillin w| dude i realized i kinda hyped him up waayy too much & that sadly i was missinq my ex & felt hella quilty abt hurtinq him .. so after already investinq over a year in him, what's one more try ? i mean, i'm not officially back with him but whatever lol .. what can i say ? i'm only human ..

siqh .. see ? optimistic dot com ..