s a d f a c e .

it is rumored that my two loves, katy perry & travis mccoy have split :[
wompwomp . no word on whaat happened & on travie's bloq he doesn't discuss any specifics pero bits of whaat he writes qive some insiqht ..

"We fight every night, now that’s not kosher
I reminisce with bliss of when we was closer
And wake up to be greeted by an argument again
You act like you’re ten
So immature, I try to concentrate on a cure
And keep lookin’ at the front door
Thinkin’ if I were to evacuate
You’d probably be straighter than straight
And wouldn’t have so much hate
‘Cause you don’t know the pain I feel when I see you smilin’
And when I roll up you start wilin’
So I front like everything’s hunky-dory
But it’s a whole different story
You don’t like the fact that I’m me
I don’t put on a show
When it comes time for you to have company
And your friends don’t understand your choice of man
They speak proper while my speech is from a gargabe can
But regardless, you shouldn’t have to be so raw
I’m lookin’ at the front door .."

que fckinq sad, they really were a cute match ..


pero anywhooo yesterday i had hella fun chillinqton w| my boobie, tiny ♥
ain't she dopeee [: we was just roaminq around everywhere; first the island, then downtown bk, & then finally times square . it was crazy cuz we're both retarded & we kept qettinq lost on the trains cuz neither of us were really payinq attention to where we were qoinq; at one point we almost ended up in the bronx until i'm like uhm where are we ? then we realized we took the train in the wronq direction & had to tranfer . l m a o ; pero i lalalove this puppiee & we be chillin like fckinq villans .

ohfckinqNINE.

happynewyear [: thank fckinq qod 'o8 is over & done with; it was probably one of the waackest years everrrr . with a bit of determination & hard work, i kno i can make 'o9 waay better . now i'm not really one for resolutions, pero i do have a few thinqs that i would like to qet done asap in this new year ..

- qet my fckinq lip pierced [lower left side, labret] i really really want one [:
- qet a full time job .. actually any job will do riqht abt now lolsx
- decide what i want to do in life; fiqure out my fckinq PURPOSE .
- take some sorta classes to become more skilled in whatever it is i choose to do .
- put more money towards my savinqs qoinq towards qettinq my own crib .
- qet fckinq toned for this upcominq summer .
- qet a fckinq T A T T O O .
- overall to be more healthy & not smoke as much .
- not to spend money on dumb shit .

soo how was everyone's new year eve ?! hella fckinq fun for me; qot sooooo fckinq retarded w| the biffinqton - we was on our dolie shit, since niqqas wanted to act stupid & end 'o8 all fcked up but it was somethinq extra liqhttttt cuz thaat just meant more LQ fur us [; sooo we drankk maad shitt & after midniqht we was qettin hella qood off thaat champaqne, usinq it as a chaser for the shots of qoosee & in the end we ended up qettin the spinsssss riqht before we was qonna spark another blunt & instead we just passed the fck out .. woke up hella early & had a wake & bkae & then the biff's mom made us breakfast - yum [:

anyways, i'm off this shit .
wishinq everyone a blessed & safe 'o9 ♥

ain't nothing worse than a smart dumb nigga ..

this is just one of those thinqs thaat i can watch a trillion & one times & lauqh just as hard as the first time i even seen the shit ..


katt williams is the fckinq best .

girl crush [;

excuse me, but i'm havinq a very random homo moment riqht now ..

LAUREN LONDON .

ahhhhhhhh ! shortieee is fckinq BAD - nuff said . like c'monnnn be serious, i hear niqqas sayinq thaat she don't look half as qood as meqan qood like ARE YOU ON CRAACK ?! now i'm not knockin meqan qood but shortie's lips are a little too biq; but even without that, she still don't qot shit on my btch lauren .. & on top of it she seems really sweet & down to earth which she qets [ m a j o r ] kudos for ; if i looked half as qood as thaat i'd be cocky as a mothafckaaa .



i also love thaat she seems to be really close to one of my other wifey'sx .


CASSIE .


now this is my fckinq W I F E Y ! deadass, i noticed this btch waaay back when she was still modelinq for delias . & when her first sinqle, "me & you" came out, i had no idea it was her until i saw the video & then when i did, i'm pretty sure i humped my TV screen . no really, cassie could fckinq qet it . i mean lauren london has a better body than her, pero i would still do cassie first . i be qoin craazy for this btch, idk why, i just have it really really bad for her .



& just to jog everyone'sx memory ..


EVA LONGORIA .

you can't blame me - she's queen bee of wisteria lane; althouqh this season they've been makinq her look a bit .. frumpy . still eva is hotter than her other desperate housewife costars . i heard a rumor that beyonce is tryinq to qet a reoccurinq or permanent role in the desperate houswives series & i'm not really sure how she would fit in, simply because she's beyonce .. like c'mon, B desperate ? anyways miss eva is also the face of bebe sport . i love flippinq thro maqazines & runninq into them :

hope everyone had a merry xmas !

baby, i can see your halo ..

i lalaLOVE this sonq & i'm really diqqin the video w| the niqqa from the movie, barbershop - que fckinq cuteee[:



& of course ; the anthem for dope btchs all around the world ..


her backup dancers seem to be the same ones as the ones from 'sinqle ladies'. am i the only one who heard that the darker one was a transvestite ? lol anyways i'm diqqinq the whole sasha fierce swaqq ..





this pic is sooo fckinq dope to me; idk why . her facial expression, the eye makeup, & the cup'o'noodles - as if mrs. carter actually eats thaat shit - its fckinq qenius .

loveeeee herrrrrrr ♥

worst weekend EVER !

no really . i'm not even exaqqeratinqqqqqqq ! it's like this weekend qod just decided he hated me & that he wanted me to be miserable before xmas - as usual . but damn .. it all started on friday, the last time i worked .. but to be prefectly honest, i have no desire whatsoever to qet into storymode so i'm qonna just make this really short .. this was my weekend ..

f r i d a y :

the ex hit me up for the 1st time since he found out abt me & whatshisface ..

some other dude who qot my number started blowin up my fone ridiculous ..

s a t u r d a y :

i broke niqht so i could qo to the mall at the crack & qet on line for the jordan packaqe but ended up beinq too impatient to wait outside in the freezinq cold on a line around the block; so i left empty handed (sadface)..

i qot suspended from work ..

probably qonna be fired if i dont find another job & quit asap ..

was so depressed i hit up my ex to chill ..

qot hella fckinq benttt; drank mad LQ & smoked hella L's ..

sleepover at the ex's ..

s u n d a y :

spent whole day w| him ..

sooo now i am back at square fckinq ONE . i've just been tryinq to stay as busy as i can soo i dont even have time to think abt whats qoinq on & what's qonna happen . i'm just tryinq to stay as optimistic as possibleeeeee ; i know i said biq chanqes were cominq & i'm thinkinq mabe this is just supposed to be my motivation to not qet too comfortable & really qet on my shit & do what i qotta do .

as far as my ex qoes - i know i was tlkinq mad shit abt him before & i was tlkinq to some next niqqa but after chillin w| dude i realized i kinda hyped him up waayy too much & that sadly i was missinq my ex & felt hella quilty abt hurtinq him .. so after already investinq over a year in him, what's one more try ? i mean, i'm not officially back with him but whatever lol .. what can i say ? i'm only human ..

siqh .. see ? optimistic dot com ..