"fck w| me, i don't qive a shxt; but not my family."

sharon osborne is a fckinq beasttttt; i love that btch .. & meqan can suck a dick & die in her stupid bikini [:

movinq on . okay now i haven't been to the movies ever since i went to see twiliqht hella months aqo cuz for some reason other ppl rather sit around & do nothinq & dish out $10 for a for a movie ticket .. & wtf do i look like qoin to a movie by myself ? lols but anywayssss i am prayinq that i can find somebody to qo w| me to see this oneeeee ..


it looks soo interestinq; not to mention brad pitt looks damn qood, i could just eat him ;x

rawr. i'm vampire .
not really but really .
i can never sleep at niqht but then i sleep all day; the time i wake up, i'm lucky if the sun's still up . the biffinqton is the same exact way tho & thank qod or else i'd be bored outta my fckinq mind awake while everyone else is dead asleep . last niqht we couldn't sleep & stood on the fone w| each other till 11oclock this morninq . then we both woke up around the same time at 5:30ish this eveninq . i really don't kno what's the matter w| either of us & we've tried numerous times to fix our sleepinq habits w| everythinq from warm milk, to smokinq L's (lol), to poppinq nyquil or tylenol PM .. sometimes it'll work for a day or two but then we're riqht back where we started . what to do, what to dooooo ..

until i find a cure,
hit me up . i'll be here all niqht ..

BROOKLYN ; we go hard .

y e s s i r r . this weekend has the potential to be the waackest of my life beinq that everyone in lametown usa (aka staten island) seems to have forqotten about my very exsistence but whatever, i'm over it . throuqh it all i've always had my biffinqton, the best friend i've ever had, & she is exactly like me in every way ( besides physically ) with my exact mindset & i fckinq love it . when i'm feelinq like no one in the world understands me & that i'm truly all alone, it's fckinq awesome that i can just turn to her & we'll be on the same paqe every sinqle time . anyways, yesterday i went over to qood ol' bklyn to chill with her, klever (her bf - pero i call him kuku), & his homeboy . we was relaxinq in the crib of course blowinq hellaaaaaa od piff - i was maad fckinq bent - & watchinq movies . fyi : WANTED ( thaat action flick with anqelina jolie ) was hella fckinq poppin; makinq me wanna be an assasin & start killinq niqqas & curvinq bullets & shit .. hmmmm ...

today i went shoppinq with the biffinqton & her mami [: of course had hella fun qoin crazy in public, beinq all loud & actinq stupid . ohh & we tried on church hats !
sexy, riqht ? lmao . sadly, once we hit all the stores, it was time for me to return back to lametown *sad face* .

sadly, no amount of spendinq seems to quench my hunqer for new shit . there are just many thinqs that catchinq my eye lately & unless there is somebody to restrict me, i find myself willinq to blow entire paychecks on my many desires . & to make it worse, of course i qotta be the one to have expensive taste . desiqner heels, fresh kicks, baqs & purses, & of couse clothes & accessories to match, jewlery, plus all these different electronic qadqets i need . & i am soooo not patient enouqh to wait until christmas !

anyways the two main pairs of kicks i qot my eyes on are these:

FILA !!! i fckinq must have the purple ones .

& always on my jordan shit, the packaqe beinq released on dec20 features the 11's & 12's .. i can't wait [:

of course i would be here for aqes if i listed ALLLLLL the thinqs i wanted so i'll quite while i'm ahead .

** oh & for all the late kiddies, brooklyn go hard is a dope new track by my niqqa jayz featurinq santiqold . if you haven't heard it, check it out riqht here (sorry; the clean version was the only one i could find ) >:[

superBAD .

lmfaooo ! i could watch this fckn movie time & time aqain & still lauqh my ass off . seth is the shit; evan is hella virqinal & hilarious & mclovin is my baby daddy - seriously . me & the biffinqton can qet hellaa od bent & quote this movie all fckn daay, word to motherrrr !

anywhoo it's like 2.30am & i'm hella awake & bored outta my ass since eveyone else seems to be sleepinq; que waack . this weekend was fun, spendinq it once aqain with the biffinqton & kuku . there was a bitt of drama in the beqinninq with the couplee (they qet so overdramatic sometimes) but they qot over it & we chilled at chrizzo's crib qettin riqhtttt; i brouqht a bottle of yaqermeizer which i had never drank before soo me & dee took hella shots & topped it off with hella coronas & L's, music blaastinqq - wooppwoopp qood timeeee =D

the other niqhtt me & dee were up all fckn niqht talkinq abt how much our lives suck lol . i mean, of course we have to count our blessinqs since there are soo many others thaat are worse off but as the 20 yr mark draws nearer & the seconds tick by, we both realize that we really need to step our fckn qame up; we have the tendency to shruq everythinq off in life like fuckkkk ittt alllll & we've qotten ridiculously lazy . so we decided it was abt time we attempt to reinvent ourselves in time for the new year . now, when i say reinvent ourselves, i don't mean how we actually are as ppl cuz lord knows there have been those who have tried to do just that but i will never compromise who i am for shitttt . however, we do need to qet focused on our futures & our careers, cuz we all know a btch is trynaaa staack her $$$ ! soo anyways we're qonna make ourselves over - both physically & mentally - in hopes of easinq us into this entire new mindset . ooh & we've come up with to do lists .

• stretch everday (qotta stay limber; can't turn into a qranny just yet - i qot thinqs to do !)
  
• take a womans multivitamin daily (cuz there has to be a way to make up for all the munchiessss)
  
• qo tanninq (no worries, i'm rican; no lindsay lohan oranqe skin over hereeee )
  
• qet another piercinq (i'm thinkinq my lower lip)
  
• requlate sleepinq habits (cuz riqht now completly nocturnal)
  
• clean my fckn room (seriously, its in unspeakable ruins)
  
• qet a SECOND job (cash rules everythinq around me, btchs)
  
• qet my permit (which would lead to my license & then my own car)
  
• qet a mothafckn tattoo (bcuz sadly i am 19 & still have zip, zelch, zero, NADAAA ; que lameee)
  
• do my hairrrr (trim, anqles, banqs, recolor, maybe blue streaks =D haa cuz i'm fckn cool)

okay okay okay soo i'm sure you quys are readinq this like wtf is this dumb btch talkinq abt ?! whaat the fck does ANY of this shit have to do with chanqinq your mindset ?! well basically, we fiqure if we switch some of the more basic shit up, we'll be able to associate the chanqes with our new focused mindsets ... diqq me ?

uqh . idk . whatever . don't ask .

& on thaat note, let me just say
2oo9 is sure to be quite an interestinq yr ...
me & the biffinqton are an unstoppable force
like power ranqers =D

& we do shit like this all the time .