uhm .

joe jonas .
& single ladies dance
... really ???

new fcking moon - hell yes .

uhmmmmm yeah .
been slackin hella od on this blog .
kinda on a unoffical hiatus till i get it together .
but of course i just HAD to come up in this btch
to express my extreme anticipation concerning
the next twilight movie coming out in november .





the posters look amazing .
edward is the love of my life lol
but they better not fuck up the entire fcking plot
like they did w| the 1st twilight movie, which pissed me off
(if you haven't read the book, it is way better than the movie)
& KRISTEN FUCKING STEWART BETTER TAKE SOME ACTING CLASSES.

the end .

soon, this will be mine ♥

this bad boy is on its way to being in my possesion .
& it's a good thing cuz my current LX is knockin on death's door .

i cannot fcking wait .

i might just cream myself .

whaaaaatttttt ?!

GET THE FCK OUTTA HERE !
it has just been reported that after three years of marriage, kelis has filed for divorce from nas !! apparently, they broke up two weeks ago . for those who remember, not too long ago it was annouced that kelis was pregnant . well now she's 7 months along & citing verbal abuse & infidelity as reason behind the divorce .

i am so fcking blown away by this news .

who the fck saw that shit coming ?
smfh .

what ever happened to the good ol' days where love lasted FOREVER ?

& THE WINNER IS ...

COCKTAIL . i can't say i'm too surprised .
i mean, doesn't she slightlyyy resemble you of one of his ex's
if you look @ her from a certain angle .. in certain lighting .. ?
anyways, she was cute & i liked her for the most part
besides the whole snitching & shit talking thing she was doing lol
who did you wanna see win ?

i'm just fcking estatic that this btch, unique, didn't win .
she was soo fcking fake & manipulative & i hated her .
if she would've won, i would've thrown up on my television .

i was disappointed crazy ass danger didn't make it to the meet the parents round; i was really feenin to see wtf had her all worked up . i had been rooting for her throughout the season, even if she did have a tiger tattooed on her face . but since the show, she's claimed to be pregnant by ray-j & then taken it back, admitted to being a prostitute for 2 years, AND has gotten engaged to nick cannon's brother !! which only kinda leads me to believe that the btch really is crazy ..

*** it's rumored that miss danger might be getting her own reality show too . idk abt yall but i'm definitely gonna be watchinn that shit lol it should be hella interesting ..

lovely little jingle stuck in my head .

rotflmao .
i've been singing this shizz
for like 3 days straight already .
you can imagine the looks i get
when i sing this in public -
hella loud .

homewrecker .

lmao i fcking loveeeee chris crocker .
& i happy he addresses such little but important issues .
think everyone who has a bf or gf should watch this video
bcuz chris makes some really good points on the whole homewrecking topic .
i've always hated when females only blame the girl their bf cheated on them w| .
don't you know, it takes TWO to tango .

video : agree or disagree ?

army strong ?

okay soo not alot of ppl know this but as of late, i have seriously been considering joininq the army reserve . of course, nothing is definite as of yet but i have been doing hella research, reqesting all of those info packets, & i'm planning on talking to a recruiter for any other questions i might have ..

i'm sure a lot - if not all of you are probably like "this btch is buggin." & sometimes i think i really miqht be but then aqain i also think that this miqht be for the best .

i mean honestly i'm @ a point in life where my situation feels so helpless . i'm almost 20, unemployed, not in colleqe, the $$$ in my savinqs account is slowly but surely dwindling & in abt 2 yrs or so, my parents are planning to retire & move to florida & i have no plans on joining them since my entire life is here in new york but i'm not really sure where to go ..

but even besides my sob story,
i really just want to make a difference
i want to become something better in life
after the army, my life would be fckin set

i just really gotta think this through
before i make such a huge commitment ..

sigh *

uhhh wtf ?

okay okay okaayyy .
you miqht or miqht not know this,
but cassie is definitely hiqh on the list
of btchs that could qet it .

however,
i'm not really all too sure
what to make of her bold new hairdo .


like seriously, i just do not know .
i mean of course her face is undeniably qorqeous;
but i just don't think she has the riqht swag for this cut .
& i miqht be wronq but i could've sworn i seen
on of the nina sky twins w| a cut similar to this one ?
whatever .

i'm interested to see how she carries this .

you miqht or miqht not know ..

that destiny's child is qettinq back toqether .
the only reason beinq that they still have one more record on their contract .



yay or nay ?
i personally think it's qonna be a little weird .
i mean, beyonce has made such a name for herself now .
it seems like kelly & michelle are just ridinq on her coat tail .

if bands are qonna start qettin back toqether & whatnot
can we qet *nsync back up in this btch ? lmfao .
i kid, i kid .... kinda .

xoxo ♥

sigh *

okay bloqqers . i am aware that i suck .
i haven't updated this shit in hella lonq .
my bad .

* random updates i'm sure nobody really cares abt ..

- started takinq an imaqe consultinq class @ F.I.T. in the city; fckinq hated it . too many of what i feel are insiqnificant rules [i.e. whether a person is "cool", "warm", "summer", "winter", "sprinq", "fall" & other thinqs] that i don't aqree w| .. plus the teacher was an inconsistant btch . i'm lookinq for a different class to take ..

- on that note, i am STILL on the hunt for a fckinq job . idk wtf is qonnna happen w| that . i feel like the only fckinq bum & it is not cute . my homeqirl vanessa says she's qonna try to qet me a job at the bank she just started workinq @ .

- i'm slowly losinq my mind, beinq celibent for almost 4 months . i can't even watch a fckinq sex scene in a movie cuz i qet jealous . it's ridiculous, this is not the way life was meant to be .

- i'm debatinq on startinq a facebook - althouqh i made a personal oath never to do such a thinq . my lovee nicole has been tryinq to convert me thouqh & i'm considerinq it just to shut her up lol & i'm curious too see who i could possibly link up w| . i just hate that everythinq you do on the site is hell public .. idk i haven't made up my mind yet .

- twitter has definitely become my newest love & i have no idea why . but if i'm not updatinq my bloq & your wonderinq wtf is up w| my life, check me out there . i wish i had more friends on it thouqh ..

- linked up w| the ex last wknd . we spent a day chillin qettin drunk & chillinq & went to see fast & furious toqether . of course, the alcohol brouqht us to be way more friendly then i think we had anticipated to be & it kinda makes the situation a little weird . i'm definitely not ready for thinqs to start back up w| us cuz not much has chanqed really . but i also don't think that we could be just friends .. its pretty fckinq confusinq & idk what to do .

lol sooo yeah .
shit hasn't been too eventful
but i promise to defintely try & update more often
cuz i'm sure you btch's miss me, riiiiiqhtt ? lol

xoxo ♥

bad btch .

AMBER ROSE .
kanye west's new arm candy is def my new eye candy; the btch is baaaddd .



now i've been readinq all these bloqs & ppl are hella hatinq on her sayin shit like how she looks like a dike, a man, like she qot cancer . STFU ! the qirl qot steez & is on fire even w| a shaved head ! so cut the shit & qive her props for bein able to look soo dope without havinq hair to hide behind like most qirls do . i love her, she could qet it, the end . not to mention she miqht be the remedy to mr west's heartbreak, since they do look happy toqether .




& they look damn qood toqether .

happy birthday carla ♥

i fckinq loveee youuuu bebe !

in other news :
i am now un member of la twitter community !
woopwoop . aren't i fckinq cool ? not really but really .
anywhoo, its kinda shiftinq into an obession ..
it pretty interestinq to see what eveyone else is doinq
a tad stalkerish but interestinq still lol
i'm still pretty new to it thouqh soo anyone who has one
be sure to leave your link in a cmnt so that i can follow youu [:

so what's thicker than blood ?

ever went out w| somebody whose parents hated you for some unknown reason ? internet celeb, chris crocker - best known for his "leave britney alone" video - says what he thinks .



i fckinq loveee this kid !
check out his youtube for some more hilariously true shit [:

sidenote : i finally watched the series finale of the L word on my DVR & i almost shitted when i realized it shall forever be unknown who the fck killed jenny ! & on top of it, they left off w| sooo much unresolved shit & yet it is over PARA SIEMPRE - FOREVERRRRRR & we will neverrrrrr know .

sadface sadface sadface .
does anyone who watched it have any opinions ?
WHO THE FCK KILLED JENNY ?!

heartbreak drake .

hey loves . i wanna apoloqize for slackin on the bloqspot - i suck, i know .
however, i'm here to recommend to you what i've been bumpin nonstop to; i'm definitely hella late but i recently uploaded 'so far qone' onto my zune & i've been addicted ever since .


yessir . i lalaLOVE this shiz . for those of you who are unaware, drake aka aubrey qrahm is the dude who played jimmy on deqrassi - who would've fckinq known hiphop would've been his next move & that he would be soo fckinq talented ? & not only does he rap, but he sinqs [talk abt a triple threat] . i really cannot, nor will i even try to express how much i love this album . he has poetic type of flow but his sonqs still have such hard punchlines & i just fckinq heart him hella od [: qo listen NOW .

anywho - in the life of mwaaaaa, lemme just saayy that niqqas qot alot of balls nowadays . okaay so tell me whyyyyyy there's this dude who i met from a mutual friend & when i met him, he had a wifey but apparently since then he ended shit w| her & has been hittinq me up to chill like odeee . he's not uqly but he's just not really my cup of tea & tho he always makes it seem like we're just qonna chill & smoke or somethinq, i can always tell when niqqas have ulterior motives sooo i wasn't tryna fcksx w| him at all but he'd still hit me up like allllllll the fckinq time - riqht here lemme just put out the newsflash that naggin is NOT cute at all ! if i really wanted to chill w| you, TRUST that i would've been on it . plz don't qet playinq hard to qet confused w| disinterest . if after the 10th invitation i'm still respondinq w| "idk" or "maybe next week" or anythinq that isn't "yes" then plz just take it as a "PLZ fck off". anyways, this dude was still hittinq me up after all the times i iqnored him so i beqan to respond to him so i could see wtf he wanted from my life . after a lonq ass convo which basically consisted of him talkinq & me respondinq w| "lol" & "wordd", the truth came out - he 's been talkinq to this chick & he felt that they needed a "third outlet" to brinq "balance" . he felt that i could qet her to "open up" . soo i'm like okaay cut the sweet shit - your basically hopinq for a 3some riqht ? & he's all like "well not neccesarily, we can just be friends .. qood friends" . i'm like whaaaaaatttttt ? do i have a fckinq stamp on my forehead that screams 'bisexual smutttt' ?! i mean maybe the 1st part but most definitely not the 2nd - & this niqqa only met me ONCE & i never even did so much as to flirt w| him ! like really, qo kill yourself ..

.. but no really .

holler for a fckinq dollar .

woopwoop! i'm def in thereeee, who's with me ?! [:

i have been havinq hella fckinq fun this past week w| two of my newest biffle'sx . as of late, i had kinda been takinq a break from everythinq & everyone & just keepinq to myself but these btch'sx have hijacked my life & since last wknd i've been binqinq & just havinq hella fun . i mean you know it's been qood day when you can't remember it & boy are we some damn alcoholics . bottle after bottle split only 3 ways & we still manaqe to finish the entire thinq before the end of the niqht . & then once the LQ'sx qone we still aint done, we're drinkinq all your beer & smokinq all your weed, SON . lol but no really . the wknd was fckinq hilarioussssss; i'd tell you quys all abt it but i've been sworn to secrecy ;x rawr .

btw .
have you btch'sx seen this shit ?
i swear i almost pissed my pants .
omfq i cannot fckinq waaaittttt :D


TRANSFORMERS IS MY SHITTTTTT ♥

no fucking waaaayyyyyy .

ohmiqodddwhaatttheeefuckkkkk ?!?!
i am immensely saddened by this picture . [pic via tmz, obviously]
also keep in mind that el foto was taken very soon after the beating
so it was BEFORE "the full extent of bruisinq and swellinq could manifest",
as perez hilton was so smart to remind everyone .
aka once the swellinq & bruisinq came into play, she looked waaaayyy worse !!

btw; a police statement was released by the LAPD that basically said that if they find out who leaked this picture, the person is fucked since they taek the confidentiality of domestic violence cases so seriously .. wompwomp .

anywho, i fckinq loveeee rihanna [you know this]
& i am def hopinq shit works out for her in this situation .
stay stronq, babesx ♥

[hint hint]

OMFG! saaay itt ainttt sooooo !!!

ay plz .. i am soo fckinq sad just writinq abt this shit & i am obsessed w| findinq out every little new detail so feel free to update me ..

okaay so some of you may or may not know that in past bloq entries, i have raveddd abt how much i absolutely lalaloveeee rihanna & chris brown, both individually & as a couple . but, i'm postive everyone has heard abt the whole 'chris brown beat the shit outta her' ordeal . i read this on some rumor site the other day but i just brsuhed it off thinkinq that the whole this was stupid & completely false . i even lauqhed a little at whatever dumbass tried to pass the story off as true . when i sat down to watch the grammy's & i realized that neither of them weren't there, i was pretty annoyed & curious as to the reason but still didn't qive much thouqht to the supposed situation .

& then the next day - BAM! BOOM! BANG! shit is on headlines everywhere & all over the news & i am practically shittinq bricks just parked in front of my computer researchinq any & every little bit of leakinq info abt it . yes, call me a fckinq loser but i'm already aware & plus i reaaaallyyyyy loveeeee both of them .. no really .. i do .


accordinq to the police reports, it was a text messaqe from some next btch that started the arqument, durinq which chris beqan hittinq her . at that point, rihanna demanded chris to drive her home & then "faked a call" to one of her homies, askinq for to have the police be there upon her arrival . this obviously only enraqed breezy even further as he threatened to kill her & beqan hittinq her aqain, waaayyy more aqqressively . somehow at this point, rihanna took the keys from the iqnition of his pretty lil lamborqhini & threw them into the street . supposedly that is when chris fled the scene & la policia showed up . rhianna told the cops that the incident was only the climax of the escalatinq violence in their abusive relationship . like who the fck would've thouqhttt ? they were the "fly force" & they were fckinq awesome & i fckinq loved them & just wtf man . no really . well anyfckinqwho, la policia took flicks at the scene & they are said to be "horrific." it is said that there is serious swellinq & bruisinq. rihanna's lip is split & her nose bloody. & alsoooo there are bite marks on one of her arms & on several finqers. WTF !!!! i feel like i can't say it enouqh .

when these pics become available to public viewinq
somebody better fckinq notify meee !!!
cuz you love me riiiqhttttt ?!
thank you, loves ♥ muahsx !

damn sperm spartans .

well these past wknd'sx have been interestinq; mostly bcuz me & the biff have been reconnectinq & spendinq quite some time w| old friends - specifically this one dude who we've both known & attended skool w| since kinderqarten . the funny thinq is that from kinderqarten all the way up until like the 10th qrade, i was competely & pathetically infatuated w| the kid . yes, i know it's lame but wtf can i say ? lol anyways the story qoes is that i liked him & he was like the hottest & most popular quy in skool who pretty much sinqle qirl lusted after . so of course he was quite the ladies man & was always fckinq w| females heads; new qirlfriend every few weeks .. lonq story short, my feelinqs for him finally beqan shiftinq after he fck'd my lifelonq rival & shortly afterwards, beqan producinq spawn w| some other btch [karma's a BITCHHHHH] .. now years later, he's qot 3 kiddies [yes, threeeee !] & two baby mamas - all at the aqe of 19, soon to be 20 in march of this year . like wtf ?! ever heard of protection/birth control - like fckinq condoms, pills, diaphraqms, sponqes - all of which usually tend to control & protect aqainst certain mishaps aka fetuses beinq implanted into the uterus; at least pull out ! i just don't understand how someone makes the same mistake 3 fckinq times ? especially somethinq so serious . but as mind bloqqled as i am, i do not judqe - at least i try not to ; he is still a very close friend of the biff & i & we have hellaaaaa love for him ♥ however, of course since god seems to be frowninq upon me as of late, it is at this staqe of life that he seems quite attached to me . & i'm just thinkinq like dude, your definitely like 4 years late for that train .. but then my biff's keeps notinq how much he's chanqed & how infatuated he seems to be w| me nowadays; & while she's not in the sliqhtest suqqestinq that i qive in to him, thouqhts have still crosses my mind where i just think what if .. ? & to make everthinq worse, he has found my ultimate weakness : MEET THE LOVE OF MY LIFEEEE, KAINO ♥


[sry for the bad quality; sidekick pix suck] i am absolutely & irrevocably head over heels for this little pitpull puppy ! & he fckinq lovesssssssss mee !!! he qets soo happy when he sees me & he dont pay attention to anybody else & he just cuddles & licks & sleeps & uqhhhhhhhhhhh !!! i fckinq want him soo badlyyyy & i just have to be a part of his puppy life, even if it means me qoin to this niqqa's crib just to see the doq lmao . not really but really . & this niqqa sees me trippin too, sayin shit like "well we can always share him .." & it sounds so temptinq but then i qet loqical & shudder such thouqhts away ..

but this isn't just abt the doq .. tho alot of it is lmao
point is, i'm qettinq impatient w| the whole findinq a qood quy ordeal
but i refuse to qo anywhere near this kid & his soldier sperms ..
soooooo as far & my love life is concerned, as of riqht now
it's pretty fckinq nonexistant ; s m f h .

at last .. a catfiqht !

rawr ! 71-year-old diva, etta james, has her panties in a bunch over bee sinqinq the leqendary tune at one of prez obama's inauquration parties . the claws came out last week at a concert in seattle where etta basically told that crowd that she hated both beyonce & obama & that beyonce was qonna qet fck'd up for sinqinq her sonq ( of course those weren't her words exactly lol )..

"you quys know your president, right ? you know the one with the biq ears? .. wait a minute, he ain't my president, he miqht be yours, he ain't my president . you know that woman he had sinqinq for him, sinqing my sonq - she's qoinq to qet her ass whipped .. the qreat beyonce - i can't stand beyonce ! she has no business up there, sinqinq up there on a big ol' president day, qonna be sinqinq my sonq that i've been sinqinq forever .."

( audio of the rant )


uhm sit the fck down etta james . i mean her voice is dope but the time has come to bow out qracefully . she should be honored that they even used her sonq for the inauqration - it's not like everyone doesn't know that its orqinally hers . it is widely known that bee portrays her in the new film "cadillac records" . & leqend or not, i hope she really doesn't think her old ass can sucessfully whipp beyonce's ass without doinq more damaqe to herself - breakinq hip bones & shit .. wtf .


BUT after her comments qained her major publicity, ms james now claims the comments were just in "qood fun" . "i'm a comedian besides a sinqer . i wasn't doinq it to be hateful . i think i'm funny .."

hmm .. soo etta, did it ever occur to you that everyone else miqht not feel the same way ? well actually i must admit i was hiqly amused but i still thouqht the whole thinq was stupid & unneccesary . what it all boils down to is etta beinq tiqht & bitter cuz she wanted to be the one to sinq her sonq at the inauqural ball soo whatthefuckever .

okaay so i'm def late on this

but i've meaninq to mention jennifer hudson's amazinq rendition of the national anthem on superbowl sunday . i was soo happy to see her doinq well especially followinq the horrific tradqedy of the murder of her mother & younq nephew - i definitely admire her strenqth . howeverrrrr, leave it up to the fckinq media to fck everythinq up by kickinq her while she's down & reportinq that she supposedly used a backinq track for the performance .


honestly, i can qive a fck less if she did or she didn't . leave her the fck alone . she's been throuqh enouqh bullshit without the media beinq all on her dick abt somethinq soo fckinq stupid . like really, qo kill yourself .

anywayssssssss, on a different & completely unrelated note ..
feast your eyes on this baby .


* squealllll !
mad random, i know, but that's just me lmao
i fckinq LOVEEE coach ♥


"This stylish suitcase in the company’s new Penelope line touts Op-Art-coated canvas fabric, glossy black leather trim and a hot pink interior that really makes it stylish. The luggage features two inside pockets each on the interior back cover and interior side wall, plus three inside pockets on the interior front wall. The Penelope OP Art suitcase also boasts a lock closure featuring a numerical combination. Great for bringing on travels, the medium version for the chic suitcase sells for $1,200, while the larger model asks for $300 more."

hey, a currently unemployed qirl can dream, can't she ?
r a w r .

never ever .

this shit is cute [: & i love when i come across sonq that can put into words how i feel abt certain situations .. it's qood to see ciara hasn't lost her touch completely; i was beqinninq to worry after seeinq the video to 'qo qirl' w| tpain .

uhm ..

why ? like i know that sex sells but really .. this shit just screams skanky . the btch in this is a whore & the dude she's on top of is homo w| his head all up in that other niqqa's lap . i'm not really sure how the whole orqy scene promote calvin klein jeans but whatever; i quess that's why i'm not in the advertisinq business .

in other news :
one of my many qirlfriends, christina milian, was seen on the scene w| sinqer, sonqwriter, & producer the-dream .


rumor has it that the two are possibly datinq but rumored still is the possibility of it beinq just a publicity stunt since it is said christina may still be in a relationship w| dre [of producinq duo cool & dre] . however, thouqh the-dream isn't exactly eye candy enouqh for the likes of madame milian, i do still love the shit outta him; love/hate is one of my favorite albums & his other work is bomb as well, can't wait for his upcominq album love vs. money . that beinq said, i think him & christina would quite cute toqether & the two could definitely make some beautiful, chart-toppinq music toqether [; woopwoop .

"it's like God's vagina ."

so beinq the marijuanna lovinq chick that i am, i have been fckinq feeninq to see pineapple express since it came out in theaters in the summer . but i never qot around to it [sadface] until yesterday & it was fckinq qreat . i fckinq LOVE seth roqen in all of his movies [superbad *my favorite movie ever*, knocked up, 40-year-old virqin] . he's just the shit . but i was soooo fckinq surprised at james franco's bombass portrayal of the burnt out pothead . i always saw him doinq more serious & dramatic roles but he was fckinq hilarious in this shit . i wish my dealers were half as cool & funny as he was - they'd be my fckinq biffs . ooh & i vow to one day find this pineapple express shit & smoke the shit outta it; yummm .. i qet excited just thinkinq about it .

but uhm anywhoooo i'm qonna cut this shit short cuz after seeinq this, i def qot some L rollinq to doo soo deuce'sx ♥

i love weeddddddd ;D

take it to another level, no passengers on my plane .

i am so fckinq excited . why ? bcuz for once, i am actually qettin my shit toqether & doinq somethinq w| my life for a chanqe . ever since i lost my job at hot topic, i've practically been livinq on craiqslists, sendinq my resume damn near everywhere in new york, & qoinq to interviews all to no avail .. so i fiqure i should do shit to better myself in the meantime & then maybe shit will work out . soo i plan to attend F.I.T. [Fashion Institure of Technoloqy] for fashion merchandisinq manaqement so i can qet behind the scenes in the retail world . unfortunately, it's too late for me to reqister for the sprinq semester so i'll have to wait BUT in the meantime, i will be takinq a course there to become a certified imaqe consultant . somthin' liqht but i'm still hype . & what's even better is that my best friend will be joininq me in takinq the course . YAY! we're qonna have soo much fckinq fun; i fckinq LOVE fashion & i'm soo interested in learninq about all aspects of it's world .. not to mention that it will totally beef up my resume & pretty much quarantee a qood ass position somewhereee & i cannot fckinq wait [:

i am criminally addicted to ..

THE L WORD . i lalaloveeee this show . the btch'sx on this shit are fckinq nuts; & of course we know, the more females the more drama but i love it - duh ! this show deadass make'sx me wanna move to LA asap & meet as many lesbians as i can - maybe i can qet a clique just like theirs lmao . s e r i o u s l y . oh & i am fckinq in love w| shane . she's not really my type but she's such a fckinq pimp & has such a cute boyish swaqq [: i'd do her lol . but anywaysssss this season'sx qonna be fckinq crazy, i can't waitttt. & if anyone else watches, who do you think killed jenny ? smh i liked her btchy ass ..

one year later .

REST IN PEACE ♥

is it just me ?!

uhmm .. no really .
am i the only one who thouqht that michelle obama looked fckinq ridiculous ?
like seriously ! & i don't qive a fck if she is the president's wife; fckinq j.lo could've worn the same outfits & would've been tiqht at that btch too ! first off, the first outfit was horrible . the fabric was weird but maybe would've looked better if it had only been a skirt or a blouse or somethinq - anythinq but an entire dress . & then the matchinq overcoat made of the same exact fabric ? waaaay too much, it was definitely overkill . maybe if she would've worn the dress & a coat that wasn't soo matchy matchy .. that def would've been better . oh & the teal jimmy choos, cute as they were, didn't help much either but i suppose they were an attempt . whatever . & then later on that dress she wore to the ball - what . the . fck ?! after readinq abt hella desiqners fiqhtinq & competinq to qet her to wear their desiqns & after seeinq some of the ideas & sketches, i had really hiqh expectations for her . there were soo many nice choices she had & somehow she ended up lookinq like a half plucked chicken & shit with feathers all over the damn place . president obama on the other hand looked suave as fck - he qets a hand clap for that one - but then he's stuck dancinq w shortie who looks like she just qot into a pillow fiqht & if that weren't bad enouqh, her dress was waay too lonq & had the president trippin all up over it .. niqqa looked like he wanted to waltz or some fancy smooth shit & her dress just kept them swayinq back & forth, spinninq around in circles . i was shakinq my damn head throuqh the whole thinq, talkinq to that btch throuqh the TV like "wtf michelleeee ! wtf !" however later i come to read on all the bloqs that she looked "absolutely stunninq" in both outfits, that'd she was considered "the most eleqant first lady to enter the white house", & that she would "qo down in fashion history next to jackie o." that last one hurt me the most - JACKIE O ?! do they even remember who the fck jackie o was ?? am i the only one who doesn't see what everyone else is seeinq ? i am pretty fckinq alarmed here . & i'm not qoin hard just abt today .. i'm just qonna qo ahead & admit that i personally do not think that michelle obama looks attractive let alone fashionable on any qiven day (that's only my opinion, respect it or back the fck up) - the president could've done waaaaay better w his eloquent smooth talkinq ass, you kno that niqqa had the ill G when he was younqer . but even still, i was rootinq for that btch today in hopes that she would be able to chanqe my mind .. sadly not . i can only ponder what else she'll have up her sleeve durinq these next 4 years ..

how curious ..

A FCKING AMAZING MOVIE !

i'm soo happy to have seen it & i seriously recommend you all see it as well ! tiny & i oriqinally went to the theater to see my bloody valentine 3d but it was sold out & thank qod or else i would've missed this . the movie was lonq as hell but it was really insiqhtful & i tauqht you the importance of livinq every day as it was your last - not to mention that brad pitt looked fckinq delicious lmao .. GO SEE IT !

for what it's worth, it's never too late, or in my case too early - to be whoever you want to be . there's no time limit; stop whenever you want. you can change, or stay the same - there are no rules to this thinq . we can make the best or the worst of it . i hope you make the best of it . i hope you see thinqs that startle you . i hope you feel thinqs you never felt before . i hope you meet people with a different point of view . i hope you live a life you're proud of . if you find that you're not, i hope you have the strength to start all over again .. -- benjamin button

we've run out patience & run out of time ..

note to readers: this letter was written toward my ex as a result to the deterioration of our relationship . it will most likely never even been read by him, however i wrote it reqardless - simply to qet everythinq off my chest ..
smfh ! you know the fck whaat ? i have fckinq had it w| you & your immature little bullshit ; like deadass GROW THE FCK UP !!! no really . i am sick & tired of you btchinq abt the most insiqnificant bullshit, tryna make me feel like i'm a fckinq idiot all the time, & throwinq stupid shit in my face every sinqle day . but then qod fckinq forbid i btch abt anythinq - even the times when you know i have every riqht to - & it's the end of the mothafckinq universe ! like wtf do you seriously expect me to do ?! listen to you btch & whine abt everythinq & just sit there w my mouth shut ?! oh but then i'm the immature one, riqht ? & all i know how to do is start arquments ; but you can do noo wronq ? fckkk outtaa hereeee ! i'm soo sick of you tryna win every arqument & never admitinq, let alone apoloqizinq, when your wronq or made a mistake but yet havinq the nerve to constantly point out & btch abt every one of my flaws & throw my mistakes in my face . you never hear me doinq that shit to you ! & i don't qet mad over dumb bullshit cuz if i actually let every little shit qet to me, then i'd be abt to kill pretty much everybody - especially you ! you really need to learn that your actions speak waaay louder than your words cuz all you do is contradict yourself & it's bullshit & its old as fckkkk ! you tellinq me "you don't care" but then askinq me a million & one questions & then qettinq upset abt shit w i'm straiqht up w you is called carinqqq ! & then when you do qet tiqht but then tell me your "not mad" & yet your makinq a shitload of stupid ass cmnts & rantinq abt how much you don't care - newsflash : thaat is you beinq mad & i don't qive a fck how much you deny it . first off, it's called "don't ask, don't tell" aka if you don't want to know the honest answer to a question then don't fckinq ask . here's another newsflash : you . are . not . my . b o y f r i e n d . & yes i know we were still fckinq around & yes i am aware that the feelinqs were still there but the fact of the matter is just that .. soo on one hand we have YOU, mr does no wronq, talkinq to btch'sx on the fone & hittinq up all types of birds on myspace & qod knows where else & chillinq w them or whatever the fck you were doinq - but you notice how much i question you or mention them at all aka NEVER ? that is bcuz i do not want to fckinq know ! & honestly i can't say that i cared either way, not bcuz i don't care abt you, but bcuz of the simple fact that i am not your qirlfriend & so i have no riqht whatsoever to tell you wtf to do . you miqht say that means i must not really love you but no, it just means i'm mature enouqh to be loqical abt shit .. but anyways thennnn on the other hand we have me, who was onlyyy fckinq w you at the time (whether or not you'd like to believe so but if i was fckinq w someone else, trust that i would not have stayed w you) but then had you qoinq throuqh my fone all the time & qettinq tiqht when any of my quy friends hit me up & qod forbid you found out i was qonna chill w one of them .. like how fckinq hypocritical can you be ? you miqht say it's you don't trust me but first off niqqa lemme say that i don't trust you any more than you trust me . second off - you don't have to fckinq trust me simply bcuz of that one obvious reason that i will not repeat . & lastly - i am sick & tired of tryinq to qain your trust bcuz no matter how fckinq faithful i am i still qet treated as if i'm smuttin around anyways so really, wtf is the point . & you know what ? i am really over you throwinq that whole "me messinq w your friend" shit in my face .. me & you were not qoinq out & i do admit that it was fck'd up of me to do that w someone who was your friend (you see ? i actually own up to my mistakes) but other than one fact, that i don't reqret it . cuz instead of admitinq that you were the one who chased me away in the first place w all your bullshit, you've decided just to never let me live it down & then use it as an excuse for some additional bullshit . & i'm an idiot for actually allowinq you to & then thinkinq that one day you would just be able to see that i was still tryna hold you down despite the shit & that maybe one day you'd just let it qo . i've tryinq to be soo understandinq w you bcuz i do know that you were hurt so badly in the past & i believe that all of this your way of puttinq a biq ass wall around you so that you don't qet hurt aqain & as much as i want to tear it down, i've already put in almost 2yr's to tryinq & still i feel like there's barely been any proqress at all . but at this point i'm sure your askinq yourself why did i even bother ? & that's when i have to admit that i made the error of lettinq my wall down too quickly w you & as a result, for some reason unknown to me, i fell in love w you . throuqh these years we have been on & off, talkinq & then iqnorinq, time after time . i'm not qonna sit here & feed you some fairy tale bullshit & say that i love everythinq about you because i obviously don't but i will say that i love you soo much that my life feels like its missinq pieces without you . but what i need riqht now, is someone who appreciates me & the thinqs i do for them - even the little thinqs . someone who doesn't try to put me down, but raise me up & encouraqe me . someone who is understandinq, who i can talk to & vent to when i'm upset . someone who will do anythinq to make smile & do sweet little thinqs for me even on a random ass day . someone who won't try to pin all the blame on me when we aruqe but admit & take responsibility when they were wronq, someone who doesn't try to me dominant over me but qives me an equal role in the relationship .. & as badly i as i want that person to be you, there's a majorly huqe difference between that which i want & that which i need . i do not NEED you, or really anyone else for that matter . what i need is to focus on myself for now bcuz if i don't, apparently nobody else will . i will end this by sayinq that only qod knows what's in store for the future - whatever is meant to be will eventually be despite any circumstance or obstacles & everythinq will work out for the better . i only hope you learn & qrow from your mistakes bcuz you lost a qood one . i wish you the best & i do still love you ..

real chance of bullshxt .

okayokayOKAYYYYYYY. now plz tell me that there are some of you who have been keepinq up w| vh1's real chance of love . well i've been on this shit like white on rice & i have been countinq down the days to the finale where chance & real make their final pick . first off lemme saay, that i was pretty tiqht that the qirls they qave them weren't even that fly .. i mean dusty ass flavaflav qot boots & hoops & all these btch'sx who were waay to fly for him & these niqqas qet stuck w| btch'sx like lusty & kiki & milf - ick ; but anywayssssssss when it qot down to the bottom 4 (baybaybay & cornfed for real / risky & cali for chance) my vote went to cornfed & risky 100% . baybaybay talked hella shxt & was annoyinq as fck & cali was just an uqly ass skank . risky was just a real ass btch & hella pretty at thaat ; & cornfed .. well she was just better than baybaybay lolsx .

soooo when i seen real pick cornfed i was hella happy to see baybaybay'sx waackass leave . BUT when chance sent risky home 1st i was tiqht like wow so he's actually qonna pick slutty little cali .. but then niqqa had the nerve to be like well i'm not in love w| you either .. & let the btch qo too ! likee whaaatttttt ?! niqqa nobody said you had to be IN LOVE w| these btch'sx, you just qotta have enouqh love for them to make them your shortieee! i mean when real picked cornfed he said, you know theres still a question mark above her head but i qot love for her & i'ma take it one day at a time & till then, i qot my shortiee . chance should've just picked risky, dammitt ! & cali was sooo tiqht lmfao but whatever ; i can't wait for the reunion show :D

oh & here's the next show i'll be tuninq in for :

FOR THE LOVE OF RAY-J ! lmfao . this shit is bound to be interestinq as fck . it premeires on vh1 (of course) on february 2nd so tune in btch'sx !

C O N G R A T ' S X ♥

it has been reported that hiphop royalty couple, nas & kelis, are expectinq their first child sometime this year; pretty interested to see how that qoes [:

but now for the real question ;
when do you think a little baby carter will pop up ?
courtesy of none other than #1 power couple jay & bee [for the slow ones] . i'm def excited for that one ..

hot damn .

another dope btch, thaat could alway'sx qet it would be none other than little miss CHRISTINA MILIAN . riqht here would be the video for her latest sinqle "us aqainst the world".




shortiee is fckinq superrrrrrbaaaadddddd lolsx . sooo the question of the day would be : who'sx more dope, in your opinion, ms milian or lauren london ? hmmm ...

like a virqin .. [or not] .

ahhh man . am i the only one who still loves madonna ? i mean the btch is 50 yr's old & look at her ! as i mentioned in a previous post, she is one of the new faces of louis vuitton & in my opinion she looks qreat & the baq & the shoes in this pic are fckinq beautifulllll . but i mean, i've seen other bloqs make cmnts abt her cooch beinq all out in this pic we all kno madonna has never been modest nor shy . have we forqotten all abt her beinq a sex symbol in the 80's ? like c'mon .

not to mention i ♥ this quote from her ..
"there is no such thinqs as the perfect soul mate . if you meet someone & you think they're perfect, you better run as fast as you can in the other direction because your sould mate is the person that pushes your buttons, pisses you off on a reqular basis & makes you face your shit .."

wise words, madonna .
love her [:

soo fck'd up .

for those of you who don't watch the news & haven't heard; early on new years day, oscar j. grant III, a 22 year old man, was shot in the back & killed by a 27 year old bay area transit police officer . thanks to someone recordinq the scene on their camera fone, it is plainly shown that grant was already beinq restained by several other officers - layinq face down on the floor - when, for no apparent reason, officer johannes mehserle then pulled out his qun & shot the unarmed younq man .


all i have to say about this is, seriously, WHAT THE FUCK . the news stations just show a short clip of the video but when i saw the entire thinq, i was fckinq infuriated . what the fck was the point of this whole thinq ?! you see that they're weren't causinq any trouble - if they were then why would everyone surroundinq the scene be screaminq, "that's fucked up ! let them go !" & so forth . none of the men they were holdinq were resistinq, they were all sittinq lined up aqainst the wall & out of nowhere this fckinq dickheaded cop wanna qo & SHOOT the niqqa ? likeeee deadass . he was UNARMED . whyyyyyyyyy ?! even the other cops looked at him like wtfff . i absolutely HATEEEE the fact that stupid ass cops think that just bcuz they qot a fckinq badqe they are exempt from the fckinq law & can just do whatever the fck they want & qet away w| it . this entire shit was uncalled for ! but this is the time camera fones & the internet can make a difference - nobody can deny the footaqe of this video ! it's not the a fiqment of everyone's imaqination that cops do some fck'd up shit to black ppl.


this world is soo fckinq backwards !
we're abt to have our first black president
in just a few days & racism is still as alive as it ever was !
shakinq . my . fckinq . head

R.I.P. OSCAR J. GRANT III
my heart [b r e a k s] for him & his family .

"fck w| me, i don't qive a shxt; but not my family."

sharon osborne is a fckinq beasttttt; i love that btch .. & meqan can suck a dick & die in her stupid bikini [:

movinq on . okay now i haven't been to the movies ever since i went to see twiliqht hella months aqo cuz for some reason other ppl rather sit around & do nothinq & dish out $10 for a for a movie ticket .. & wtf do i look like qoin to a movie by myself ? lols but anywayssss i am prayinq that i can find somebody to qo w| me to see this oneeeee ..


it looks soo interestinq; not to mention brad pitt looks damn qood, i could just eat him ;x

rawr. i'm vampire .
not really but really .
i can never sleep at niqht but then i sleep all day; the time i wake up, i'm lucky if the sun's still up . the biffinqton is the same exact way tho & thank qod or else i'd be bored outta my fckinq mind awake while everyone else is dead asleep . last niqht we couldn't sleep & stood on the fone w| each other till 11oclock this morninq . then we both woke up around the same time at 5:30ish this eveninq . i really don't kno what's the matter w| either of us & we've tried numerous times to fix our sleepinq habits w| everythinq from warm milk, to smokinq L's (lol), to poppinq nyquil or tylenol PM .. sometimes it'll work for a day or two but then we're riqht back where we started . what to do, what to dooooo ..

until i find a cure,
hit me up . i'll be here all niqht ..

s a d f a c e .

it is rumored that my two loves, katy perry & travis mccoy have split :[
wompwomp . no word on whaat happened & on travie's bloq he doesn't discuss any specifics pero bits of whaat he writes qive some insiqht ..

"We fight every night, now that’s not kosher
I reminisce with bliss of when we was closer
And wake up to be greeted by an argument again
You act like you’re ten
So immature, I try to concentrate on a cure
And keep lookin’ at the front door
Thinkin’ if I were to evacuate
You’d probably be straighter than straight
And wouldn’t have so much hate
‘Cause you don’t know the pain I feel when I see you smilin’
And when I roll up you start wilin’
So I front like everything’s hunky-dory
But it’s a whole different story
You don’t like the fact that I’m me
I don’t put on a show
When it comes time for you to have company
And your friends don’t understand your choice of man
They speak proper while my speech is from a gargabe can
But regardless, you shouldn’t have to be so raw
I’m lookin’ at the front door .."

que fckinq sad, they really were a cute match ..


pero anywhooo yesterday i had hella fun chillinqton w| my boobie, tiny ♥
ain't she dopeee [: we was just roaminq around everywhere; first the island, then downtown bk, & then finally times square . it was crazy cuz we're both retarded & we kept qettinq lost on the trains cuz neither of us were really payinq attention to where we were qoinq; at one point we almost ended up in the bronx until i'm like uhm where are we ? then we realized we took the train in the wronq direction & had to tranfer . l m a o ; pero i lalalove this puppiee & we be chillin like fckinq villans .